As I write this, its 12 p.m. on a Thursday afternoon. I’m laying down
flipping between the Mets and the Yankees, bouncing back and forth
between AIM, emails and trying to write this on my sidekick, flipping
through a script, and my iPod is sitting right next to the remote, waiting for me to figure out that
I really don’t need to hear Bobby Murcer and Michael Kay narrate the
game. By the way, I just realized that Eric Gagne is on the Texas
Rangers (if you don’t know baseball you can ignore that one).
I’m in the middle of what I like to call purgatory. Somewhere between
being completely immersed in my career, and probably one step from
leaving it all behind. If you ever wanted something, you probably
understand what I’m going through…its something like the last few
months of senior year in high school or maybe the week between finals
and graduation in college. The few minutes after you downloaded that
song you had to find before you play it. Its a bittersweet place to be.
The funny s**t, is that people try and tell me to enjoy this time. Can
you believe that? After this from what I hear my life isn’t gonna be
the same anymore, and the pace I think I’m running at is gonna look
like Diddy tryin to keep up with the Kenyans in the New York Marathon.
So I try and enjoy it a little bit, but its not so easy especially when
I’m dealing with acute writersblockitis. Thank AllHipHop.com for giving
me a chance to write something other than songs…hahaha!
Summertime looks like its gonna be real busy. I’m gonna be going on a
tour with my homie Sickamore in July and August, so make sure when we
breeze through your city you come check us. I’m also involved in an independent film that’s in pre-production right now and a couple other things I can’t
really talk about right now…but that’s just the business I guess.
Last but not least, if you’re in NYC on May 29th, Im gonna be at Club
Midway (clubmidway.com) in Lower Manhattan, and June 13th come check
The Champagne Convention concert. For more details on shows, check my MySpace page (www.myspace.com/esso) I’m gonna have a few friends with me, and of course, Im gonna tear it down!! GONE
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